Last night I lost my best friend in the world.
She has been the most consistent relationship in my whole life, I have lived with her longer than any one person – even my Mum. She has always been such a character I would talk to her and she would answer back. She would cuddle me like a small child, nestling under my chin, and the harder I squeezed her the louder she would purr.
She was always a very sweet natured and cuddly cat. Right up to the end she would be sitting beside me occasionally pawing at me for pats and remained to the end very headstrong and very determined if she wanted to do something or be somewhere! We had a very close relationship.
For a while now she has had a cancerous tumour growing in her nose. It became apparent a few weeks ago and her symptoms for the last 6-8 months now make some sense.
So yesterday I had to make THAT decision, the one I NEVER wanted to have to make - the decision to let her go. So many people told me “you’ll know when”. Well I didn’t really know when but I suspected she was in pain and I could not let that go on.
This was –so– not the way I wanted us to part - not that I would ever be ready to say goodbye. I would have another 19 years gladly.
I feel so empty inside, I feel like I have lost a limb.
It was such a privilege to have you in my life Miss J, I love you to the moon and back sweet girl and you will live on in my heart forever, XXX